On August 14, 1983, Mom brought you into the world. When she asked me to change your diapers I placed you on our bed and as I began to change you. I asked you if you knew who I was. You began to giggle and said, Dad! I told Mom and she said that is impossible for babies don’t talk. As I proceeded to change your diapers you continued to giggle while peeing on me. Wow. Now 37 years later I was with you as you transitioned from this world. On the morning of May 23, 2021, you asked me to go to the store and get you some Gatorade. When I returned I found you on the floor. I asked you what had happened and you said you rolled out of bed. You then asked me to change the bedsheets and so I did. You continued to smile as you watched me struggle to change the bedsheets. Finally, I accomplished the task. I then sat down on the floor in a Buddha style beside you with my legs folded. You seemed to be peacefully asleep. As I sat alongside you I noticed that the Light of God began to move from the top of your head down to your heart and back again.  As I saw the Divine Light I said, “Oh Father you have come to take Jolene home”.You then opened your eyes and I asked you if you were ready to get back into bed. You wanted to remain for a few more minutes resting. You then were ready to proceed. As I tried to lift you my efforts were of no avail. I then suggested I prop you onto the side of the bed. I once again sat alongside you in Buddha style as you tried to shimmy up into the bed. I was sitting on the floor next to you with my legs folded and I began to wipe your back with a washcloth. Suddenly, your entire body went limp as you fell into my arms pinning me to the floor. You felt extremely heavy. I said to you, “Jolene, you feel like dead weight”. Finally, after a few minutes of struggling, I was able to get out from beneath Jolene. Her entire body reminded me of a puppet who ended the performance. As I rolled you to your side I realized you weren’t breathing. I spoke with you for a few minutes thanking God for finally putting an end to the incredible pain you had been enduring from the GBS.

I called 911 and the operator had me give Jolene mouth-to-mouth resuscitation. When that failed she had me give her chest compressors. Soon the 911 team arrived. They worked on Jolene for about an hour and were able to get a pulse started. I immediately knew that a pulse was insignificant at this point and that you had passed. Several hours later, I found myself at the hospital, identifying my deceased daughter. God was kind and so was Jolene who never told me that she was dying while God blinded my eyes to all the signs that she was dying. Between my tears and the joy of knowing that God was there to take Jolene home, I felt some relief. Later, that night and for the next several days I shed many tears before returning to New York City. During my two months in San Francisco at the height of the Epidemic / Shelter in Place, I lost 33 pounds in weight, my speech had become much worse, and I needed help walking.  

About 5 days later I returned to New York City since the lease was expiring on the San Francisco apartment. Once again I needed a wheelchair to board the flight to Kennedy Airport. When I returned to SoHo in Manhattan, the next several months were very difficult with the loss of Jolene, my continued recovery from my stroke about a year earlier, which resulted from previous radiation treatment of Cancer at the base of the tongue, and learning to speak and walk again. In August of 2021, the Light of God allowed me to know that Jolene is doing well. I thank God, Jolene, and her Mom Shirley for giving me this incredible adventure of being a parent. I know for a fact that you and Mom have entered the Kingdom of God for His Light had always been a part of your earthly journey as it has continued to be a part of my life since I was about 7 years of age. I miss you both and thank you and Mom for allowing me to be your biological Father. You once asked me if I had to choose between, God and You, who would I choose? I replied, “That is easy, I would choose God, for if I have God I also have you, since God is your Creator, your Heavenly Father. As soon as I complete my Spiritual Mission before the end of this Decade,  I will once again rejoice in seeing Jolene, Shirley, and all our family members.

For the last several years, up until the end of October of 2023, it was as if I had been in a FOG, but God gave me the strength to move forward, and in November 2023, I was able to return to the website Ministry in earnest. I was horrified when I saw the state the Ministry was in. By the end of December 2023, the Ministry will be completed for this juncture. Before the end of this Decade, my Spiritual Mission will be completed and I will once again rejoice in seeing Jolene and Shirley and all our family members.